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I didnt post anything in 2 years and come back with this!! XD

I cant believe I come back to LJ and post this!! This is officially my first K-pop fic and I thought it would be SiwonxHeechul instead of KrisXChanyeol.. I started like the pairing just few months before Kris' lawsuit and it is my first time having an OTP which beyond repair but what I can do.. a friend told me that K-pop fandom has so many drama. I thought its because her fav pairings are mostly broke (Yunjae, Hanchul, Kangteuk eventhough temporary only, and then SS501). Now I understand why she left the fandom and back to J-fandom... As for me, I dont know for how long I will ship this pairing since I often jump from one to another too. But now, Enjoy or not??!!

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You said 'I knew u since years ago, I knew u so well' or something like 'I read u like a book'... Dont say it easily coz youre not. We're not a bestfriend. We're just a friend to lick each other wound.

So today is the first time we met again after months I avoiding you.. you look skinnier. And as I thought, youre not that strong to bear loneliness. Youre getting married this year coz hes the only person who stay by your side while i'm away, while she away, while every of your friends away. Congratulation! You eat your own words saying that hes not your type and see... you just kill one of your dreams. You know my dreams, I know yours.

Kay, youre getting married and will have someone to take care of you, will always there for you, will love you. I envy it. Really. But I dont want my dreams remain as dreams... I'll try to change it into reality. I'll try. I just need to be patient and steady...and stuck a bit more with loneliness, rite?

...This is not an envious. This is (my) regret of (your) dreams that stay as dreams.

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So this entry is my first post in 2011. Okay...i believe some people out there (who still care bout me) gonna shout; where the hell have u been??! guys guys, i did not go anywhere. I just stuck in a new world that i never thought gonna be hard like this. Even laughter is gradually dissapear.. I become a bit anti social, a weirdo, an outsider, whatever.

Days where i feel like its good to breathe and fangirling and drool over bishies is lower than days where i hope world will end in a minutes.

You know...the more older i am, the more darker is a world to my eyes. And i dont know why is it... All i know now is i am not the same person anymore.

...i wish i could get my old self back someday.

-Sari or Saree-

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To shinyane

Dear shinyane,

I wish u a happy birthday,
Hope your days will always full of luck and love!

I wish I could make you a fanvideo or write you a fic for your birthday,
So here I am...writing a journal as a substitution for that fic/fanvid,
In other words, this entry is absolutely dedicated for you, Colinda.

Once again, Happy Birthday!!
Buon Compleano
Tanjoubi Omedetou
Shingre kuai le
Selamat Ulang Tahun
Bon Anniversaire
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my Tarrot card?

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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I curse alot today

People could be so goddamn stupid sometimes.

No exception...
my mom,who forgot where she put her money n suspect 'tukang aer' who took it n made dad n me looking for the money all over the house.Then,mom found it on big bag which she prepared before she go.It's in between her clothes!

my aunt,who promised my mom to come to pick her at 9pm n didnt come.No text,no call,no thing to inform my mom that she cant pick her or gonna be late while mom was worry like hell coz that means she must put the whole 20kilos chicken n various veggies back to cupboard n refrigerator.Then after i put those things back,my aunt arrived,yes at 11pm!

What dirty lang i used? not dirty, just said 'goblok' for times which im pretty sure Mom n Dad hear it clearly.

I'm so bad n short temper nowadays.I know why,its bcoz pms.

But still, Peopld could be so goddamn stupid sometimes...No exception.

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May 14th 2010, after I received my salary, I went to Alief's store to give him a RedPepper Voucher that i promised him before. We ate at Sushi Tei with Vadiel also. The three of us just chatting and enjoy the foods...then Vadiel's mobile rang. And we end up at Alief's rent room for dress up.

It's goddamn messed

Alief cut his jeans for me to wear and Vadiel called his friends in order to borrow girls shoes coz mine is not proper enough.

I'm not good in make up. Alief did it for me. I also bad in hair do. Vadiel helped me.

..and we ready for the party.

its my first time to be in X2. lol. yes, it my first time!
and its not that bad. Indeed, i had fun for watching lot lot of pretty boys there. lol cute boys were everywhere and that gorgeous male model was right beside me. XDDD There were also familiar faces in that club..its funny, bcoz its my first time to be there and i was invited by Vadiel's friend but Vadiel himself is only knew few people while me..I'm F!!

In a place like that, they played Justin Bieber's Eenie Meenie. XD

a little incident also happened, while my eyes cant stop starring a gorgeous guy..someone passed me and had his cigarette kissed my left thigh. Great! I have 'tensoplast' now.. damnme, i cant angry coz hes cute. Cih!

I wanna go home...well, im back to work now~
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