~*~Drawing Various Lights in Furious~*~

on last thursday, there is a big family gathering at Cikampek. I went there with my sis and my bro. I dont know why but i kinda feel there is a hope for me to visit bandung...and yeah, lot of impossibility. So i packed my facial creams, sunblock, a jacket, a perfume, and a toothbrush. Since i thought that is impossible, why should i burden my shoulders to bring clothes?

arrived there, my handsome cousin said there is lot of space on his car. So i came to bandung with him. no cloth, no underwear, no pants, no thing but those mentioned stuff and i wore sandal!

when i was in highway, i remember that house key is on my bag. Dammit! how can i forgot that im the one who keep it??! but it solved already. My Mom is GRRRRReat! she knew the solution.

before i reach bandung i text everyone i knew that im on the way to bandung and asking them to meet up. And Arya is the first person i met when i arrived. he also accompany me to give my house key to my aunt house. and then we have dinner, then hang out with Arya friends who are so so easy going and nice and i enjoy hang out with them. and TADA! its midnight already and Cinderella have no place to sleep...

so i end up sleep at Kiki who is a make up stylist... if cinderella become pretty before the ball, mine is otherwise. Kiki's hands is like a cinderella's fairy...magic!!

Tomorrow is Idul Fitri people!! So I’m here to say ‘Happy Idul Fitri’ Minal Aidzin Wal Faidzin, Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin.

Also, Sept 17th is Amano Shinji aka Tora’s birthday. As last year, I wish you; Motto motto kakkoi ni natte! I want to present you a fanvideo but then I decide to finish the supernatural first for takarai_karin b’day. Happy B’day Karin, wish your dream will come true. Do NOT give up in chasing it! Hope you like the FV coz this is my first movie FV and to be honest, I kind of no idea at all (you know when you make fanfic you have plot, story line, setting and blablabla and my head was totally blank) with this movie and not sure with the outcome but it’s done anyway. So yeah, enjoy!



Btw, during my boredom, I made Siwon and Gackt fanvideo too. I’m not a satisfied with my Siwon FV, the Tatu song’s that I use is broke in the middle of the video.



And my Gackt FV… *calming herself down* I feel like I want to mention all of animal in the zoo because youtube is muting my Gackt FV!! It’s Hysteria by MUSE dammit!! Hey YoufreakTube, don’t you know how many blood I put on that vid??!

After I hang out for some times with my old friends… those memories of my pictures being a university student with my indifference attitude of classmate friends and often didn’t give a damn with them were back and making me realized that I miss those moments so fuckin much.

When I saw Tia for the first time since, God knows when, I knew she didn’t change that much. She is still into Hyde. Is still the girl with glasses and genius head that full of Japanese language grammar and kanji. Is still telling me why I didn’t give a try to do modeling with height and weight like mine… she’s still the sane girl compare to me, Angga and Zita.

Zita is still the smallest and the witty girl. Her tongue is as good, unique, and sharp as five years ago. The only change that I noticed is her taste of fashion is more feminine and girlier.

And Angga…
Back when I was her classmate and roommate, I thought that she is a monotone girl that need a splash of insanity from Runi and mine. I never thought that she’s become one of my precious friend considering what we’ve been through during our roommate term where I wish I have my own room alone… Well, after I graduated and left her with Runi, and she graduated while I were working, and then she flied to Japan left Runi in our scary-spooky-but-lovely dorm alone… and February 5th where I woke up with hysterical scream after I read the text on phone and where Angga’s sob accompanied my trip from house to office… I wont forget that day.

After I contemplate the whole things…








I grow to fond Angga more than I did years ago.

I’m back!

I cant believe I finally updating this journal again after months of hiatus… uhm, maybe I enjoy twitter so much that I abandon this journal… anyway, if you have twitter or facebook, you can add me or follow me under the name ‘acu_saree’.

So… where and what did I do along this time?

Sometimes I’ll be at my sister’s house and watching her kids and gradually know how to stop Ryuga from crying. At home, I spent my time by watching TV series; Chuck, Gossip Girl and Prison Break and discover that I fell in love with Michael Scofield character. Also! There’s a tint of shounen ai on Gossip Girl! LOL

What about job?

I resigned in July. I can’t deal my ex-boss leadership. He kept telling his employee that he will treat them like family and all of bullshit promises he say were ended otherwise.

What about fangirling?

I FALL IN LOVE AGAIN WITH TOKIO HOTEL!! Since I found this new fandom, some of my dreams are changed a bit. I won’t tell what my dreams are… I will when it came true already. And for now, I will keep dreaming… and keep drooling over Bill und Tom.

This fandom is different from J-Rock, J-pop, K-pop or Emo. Because only Tokio Hotel can provide Twincest.

Maybe I’m not the only one who thinks that Bill and Tom’s fight or quarrel is hot…

Btw, I feel sorry for Panic! At The Disco… you’re still my favorite Ryan… and because you’re still my favorite I will throw you Tom Kaulitz as Brendon substitution. Just remember to share Tomi with Billi (^.~)

And thank God I watched PATD concert already…

And last, I want to greet shinyane who is chasing her dreamland… I hope you can reach it and be happy. I’m hoping that we can meet someday…

BTW, Happy Birthday, Buon Compleno, Bon Anniversaire, Shingre kuai le, Tanjoubi Omedeto and Selamat Ulang Tahun For Kaulitz Twins, Tom und Bill!! they're twenty now~

Today is my first day at work. Yes people I got a new job. Of course, three months of probation. I don’t know what exactly my position is, but I knew that I will enjoy it. Here is the place where I work >>> www.melonproperty.com
Before I decide to work here, I was in the final interview in Hoka Hoka Bento for salary negotiation. I was in dilemma. I did count plus-minus of these two jobs and I have my decision. Hokben’s salary is higher but the office is far from my house. Mom says that I always a short temper person after back from work, always whine of how tired it is to have a distant office. Dad says that I love computer and internet so it’s right to work here. Well here I am.

My jobless days is good. No money but mostly happy.

1.I watched Alice Nine concert -Discotheque like rainbow, where I realized that Saga’s cloth is skimpier than the last one, Tora that is very very far from fanservice –is pecked by Nao and more of Shou-Saga’s action. I’m so out of date of Jrock things but I try to keep update about Alice Nine.

2.Until now, I’m still learning photoshop. There are some days where I stuck with only photoshop. And here’s the result.the First pic is my Baby huey and the second one is my lovely gay friend, Abay aka Idah.



3.Tried to make fanvideo. And after I checked my youtube account, the AoiXUruha vid which is dedicated for shinyane is deleted!! I’m so mad!! And the last fanvid I made is ShiwonXHeechul. Not upload in youtube yet…

4.Checked my Jrock old stuffs. Baroque, Dir en grey, Gazette, of course, the super talented Gackt! I’m so surprised that he will act with Josh Harnett What more surprising is, he want to retired from entertainment business on 2010!!

5.Watched Heechul and Korean’s reality shows. Band of Brother is sucks. Good Daddy is better. We got married is best! But I didn’t watch it anymore since Hwang Bo and Hyun Joong couple leave.

6.Watched Queer As Folk season 1. I never get bored of Brian Kinney. Watched Brian and Justin is brought back the pedophilia syndrome I had years ago. LOL. Tora and Hiroto… is it a pedophilia?

7.Reading fics. A bit of Sichul and Rydon. Some of Billshido. A lot of TomXBill. Twincest, somehow, is delicious. Duh, every Manxman action is delicious.

8.Droolssss over Bill Kaulitz.

Now I’m working. It means that I have to say good bye to some of fangirling stuffs. The only possible activity I can do is the last one, Reading fics.

On Feb 22th, Karpet is headed to Rotterdam. Left by my dearest friend is indescribable. I become use to it now, though. The good thing is, March 22th Angga is back to Jakarta.

Anyway, I hope every one on my list are healthy and happy. I’m sorry for not drop comment on your entries, my internet access is died! I try to make it alive again…

I reread again this fic… this no-one-deserve-happiness-and-let-suffer-together type of fic. Definitely angst, Definitely my favorite genre.

The fic is from a fandom that once I fell and fell again for the second time after sank abit in Super Junior fandom. It’s not totally Super Junior fandom though, since I only up date Heechul related, maybe… Heechul fandom? Whatever. The point is I start to fond this fandom. Again. For the second time. It’s Tokio Hotel and is, Twincest!

The fic is surely bout Tom and Bill Kaulitz. This fic left me speechless, blank mind for a second, and breathtaking.

It start with; The kids love watching the DVDs. Oberhausen 2006 and 2007, Parc de Princes 2008, California 2009, Tokyo 2010…

…the 18-year-old Bill seems just as puzzling and fascinating as fifteen years ago. He is out of this world. He exists in a space unfamiliar and ungraspable, right in the absolute centre of things, where the chemistry of creation works its wonders. He is the breath before the explosion, the pulse under the thumb, the helium in the belly of the Sun.

But stars die eventually.

End with …If he is with Sophie, his wife brings him pain killers and massages his limbs with her soothing hands. If he is with Bill, his brother wraps himself around Tom’s body and softly hums to him. Tom imagines that the aching choir of his bones is an accompaniment for Bill’s hoarse, off-key singing. It’s not enjoyable for anyone else anymore, but it’s music.

It is still music.

Their music in the night.

I love every line on this fic. It’s well written and realistic.
So realistic that I’m scared if this really happen in real life…

This line will win the most choke up line;

…Maybe it is for the better, thinks Tom, as he is planting kisses of mourning on his brother’s neck. It would be much worse, if the Voice had remained intact, whereas the Instruments accompanying it were destroyed.

Fever of the bone by; chayenne7
Pairing: TomXBill Kaulitz (Twincest!)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: (hard-core!) Angst

I had this idea, to make a fanvideo where starring by Tom Kaulitz, and after browsed more in youtube, I found out that alot of those Kaulitz twins videos are using the same song that I had on head.

What song?
It is 'womanizer' by Britney Spear

Why that song?
Because it FIT Tom the best!

Womanizer = A man who likes many women and has short sexual relationships with them
Tom = Womanizer

I want to put all the videos I had where it show how 'womanizer' is Tom.
And you lil sister, shut up!! I'm still in status love-hate toward Tom... love him for takes care of his little brother and hate him for being the next generation of Brian Kinney.

Best bastardQuote!
Brian Kinney: 'I dont believe in love, I believe in f**king'
Tom Kaulitz: 'I believe love in one night' (read; one night stand)

Oh Tora, your image on my head is getting better and better because of Tom...

Just wanna say 'HAPPY NEW YEAR' to all of you, hope this new year is better than last year, AMIN!!


To shinyane
Chere Colinda,
je te souhaite une bonne annee 2009.
je prie pour que tu sois heureuse dans ta vie. Bisous...

my mother language is Indonesian lang or Bahasa. English is my second lang, I knew English at the age of... twelve? I did attend english course for five years in total. I quit after I got accepted in University. My subject is Japanese Language, and yes, my English is better than my Japanese Language. Hiragana and Katakana is okay, but Kanji is not okay. Its hard to write and I'm not surprised if Japanese itself can read Kanji but cant write it.

uhm,

Because of Heechul, I want to know Korean language too. I want to know what Heechul said and joked about...

Because of Tokio Hotel, especially Bill, I want to know other Germany words besides; Ich liebe dich, rette mich, and in die nacht.

And of course, Because of shinyane, I want to speak French. Ne~ Colinda, I know that youre not a fan of Tokio Hotel, I think you hate them instead. But I'm hopeless, I'm fangirling over them and maybe this journal will fill by me babbling bout them... Je suis desole~

Except you tell them or simply write it on your journal, right?

For me, those two options above is somehow relieving...

That's why, SOONER OR LATER I WILL FILTER MY FRIENDS LIST!

These two past weeks, Ive been busy with job training, but amazingly, almost every day, I regularly check my Friends Page even though I dont drop comment... I read all of your latest entry, from school, work, wailing, to fangirling entries, I read them all. Thank you for updating your journal and let me know that youre okay and fine, I appreciate it. But now I have a hard time to keep in track of your latest entries,

SO!

My journal will be SEMI-FRIEND LOCK, mostly those entries under the 'black and white' and 'hell-o I'm not o-fucking-kay' tags are LOCKED, because they are personal. I know that I'm not a fabulous author, not a good writer, but if you add me for fics; go on, go ahead, but I will not add you back. Dont worry coz I wont lock those entries under 'fangirling, fanvideo, and fanfiction' tags, you're free to read or watch.

So, If you realize and aware that you're on my friend list and want to keep me on your friend page (and also can stand with cursing, swearing, devilish and brainless thoughts, dirty and foul words, or nonsense -of me); you just need to reply this entry by '<3'... I'll wait your reply until January 18th "09, Coz I know each of you have your own activity, as well as me. I think a month is quite a long time to reply two characters of < & 3... so after a month, I'll say good bye to whom didnt reply.

sorry for being picky and meanie (_ _)

Ya ampyun, akhirnya temen quwh tercinta yang bercita2 jadi stripteaser sadar juga kalo gw kangen ma dia... dan seperti dugaan, lebih tepatnya kebiasaan, kata pertama yang ada di sms manusia itu 'BENCONG!! ini gw...' duh, gara2 jaman baheula kami terlalu comfortable dgn menyebut lo as 'conk' or 'ci' ternyata sampe sekarang masih berlanjut, ya ga sih conk? ahhh jadi kangen ngeliat lo ngedance, kpn ya conk kita ke gay night bareng lagi? dulu tiap wiken em? secara ngekos getoh, bebas! sayang SE dah metong ya bo...



PS; Adul, Angga!!! tar kalo lo udah nyampe Jakarte kite bernostalgila ke bandung ma nangor yukkkk...

This morning, before my mom leave to shop, we talked bout ID card. And just today, I finally know the real age of my mom. She fake her birth year into +/- 5years younger. Afterward, before she reach door, I stomped my feet and whined like a kid on how she didnt fake my birth year too, 'why dont you say I born at 1986 or 1987?' -I said and she smiled.

To my family, especially my mom, I could be so goddamn childish, a pampered princess, and! I, sometimes, dont act on my age. My brother in law often witness it, he saw when I asked his 5years old daughter to push me so I can ride the car toy in the house, at the living room. Sometimes I steal my niece snacks or we two will scream or shout to each other like 'aaaa~' or 'MINE!!'. Sometimes, if I were in good mood, so as my niece, we will eat instant noodle or meat ball together while watching Tom and Jerry.

I miss Bandung, I miss Dera, I miss starbuck's vanilla blended with chocolate sauce or green tea with caramel sauce or a simple vanilla + raspberry.

Sial! gw jg kangen ngondek~

uhm... di folder New Fic ada;
Sebuah Rydon fic
Sebuah Sichul fic
SEGUNUNG Sihan fic
Sial, pada kemana seh penulis2 Torapon??


btw,
to kill time, Kyuhyun does; games, watching dorama and... learning math??!
yg trakhir jauh2 deh dari gw, mending molor drpd ketemu aljabar cs.



susah deh kalo bekas peserta olimpiade matematika...

since my dear friend named Anggraini mnemosy is not too familiar with english, this entry is using Bahasa.

Adulllllll, akhirnya lo bikin LJ juga (walaupun atas bantuan gw juga), knp ga dr dulu aje seh lo bikin?? yasud yg penting skrg lo udah bikin...

okay, jadi hari ini gw masak sekutel, skutel, schotel, whatever... intinya gw puas sama hasilnya, enak, delicious, oishii~ saking ngidamnya gw ma ni makanan, setengah loyang gw abisin sendiri ^^'' I could be so so so fuckin greedy for delicious food that included Cheese, Mayo, and chocolate. Adul, dulu waktu kuliah gw pelit sama kue keju bikinan nyokap kan? maap ya, kayanya ampe skrg masih (-.-)V

( Kata mamak ku, )

what the hell is this??? Damnit! This hooker! Fic is damn damn damn GOOD!
Siwon on this fic is kind of Tora on my head… I keep telling my self that Siwon and Tora is like Heaven and Hell, they never stand in the same circle. Siwon is an obedient Christian while Tora is a rebellious tiger. The only thing I found them similar is their species; Tora the tiger and Siwon the simba. Both live in the jungle, playing around and fooling around and (un)fortunately, fall for the same princess; Cinderella. LOL.

*slap herself to get the sanity back*

And then I remember how Siwon act when a camera caught him refused to share his cola with Donghae (he slapped Donghae hand whose reach onto the bottle too) and he share it after he noticed a camera focused on him. And! Siwon roles as a criminal in Timeless music video is made me and kyokyon think that Siwon is… faker.

1.'second choice'
2.'second choice 2'
3.'appearance'
4.‘And I’ll always be waiting in the back door’
5.'cold comfort'
6.'showdown'
7.'meant to be broken'
All written by i_shiki except for 'appearance' by out_of_words24
I only put the links that SiwonxHeechul and SiwonXHankyung related. check shiwon_tops_all for more!

Right after I finished read the 4th fic , Gilgamesh song’s –Fukai no yami, come up and successfully crack me by cussing on the phone line…

me; ’Holyshit! Siwon is a bastard!!’
mo; ”For me, Siwon is a criminal, titik!”

And my hatred for Siwon keep going on when I read this line;
"If it's money," Siwon goes on, placing one hand on the wall by Heechul's head, "I can give you more."

Heechul sucks in a breath and immediately hopes it went unnoticed by Siwon - highly unlikely with their chests pressed together like that. "What the hell are you saying?"

"I said I can give you more than he can," Siwon repeats, quietly, and Heechul wishes he didn't just make him say it again. It doesn't sound any less terrifying for the second time, either.

Siwon is... NASTY!!

its 7.20am.
I knew, it's too early for me to woke up, too early for a jobless woman like me to start activity... the only reason is the speed of my net is pretty amazing at hour like this.

so after i browsed here and there, i found these...

( What they choose for ride? )

Siwon is the man!! Handsome face, handsome taste and obviously, handsome wallet!! damn him! Have my kid will you?

I have a lot of things to write down… a lot of things happened, bad and good. This entry is a ‘Good side’, the bad side will come next after this one.

Yesterday, I visited Kido’s house. His fans were there. A TV station, Metro TV, was there to report too. The house where he invite his fans is not the same house as I visited years ago, it’s true that the house still at the same line, but this house is different. I think he bought that house to collect the whole achievement he, his younger sister and younger brother got.
( more bout visiting Kido and a package from France )

Dear Colinda, Thank you for the late birthday present. I think about to send you a letter…but then I have another idea. This supposed to be done on three days, but I had some appointment with friends and my sister asked me to go out of town to deliver her document, and finally it’s done.

Once again, Thank you~ hope you will enjoy this…



PS;
*)This fanvid also avaible on my youtube
*)The fanvid also xposted to; gazette_yaoi, gazette_media and aoi_x_uruha

Kalo di baca dari judulnya seh, ya jelas beda jauh bgt kali... plis! dia udah kelalang keliling sana sini, bahkan semua negara impian gw macam kaya Inggris or UK, Japan ampe Korea, udah di kunjungi ma dia. Mana selain mengunjungi, kalo dia menang di pertandingan, dia bawa pulang sejumlah rupiah juga. Malah gw denger pas dia menang medali mas olimpiade, dia dapet rumah dari pemerintah Indonesia. Gelo wae, dia dapet medali emas, gw dapet mas-mas aja kagak!!

Well, sejak dulu waktu gw satu club bulutangkis, gw dah yakin seh kalo Kido bakal sukses. Dan ternyata prediksi gw bener, Kido mang sukses. Gimana engga, dia ikut privat bulutangkis, bola kemana aja diuber, pantang nyerah pula, kalo udah ketinggalan jauh masih bisa nguber, belom lagi kalo udah waktunya sholat, itu raket ditanggalkan trus langsung ngambil wudhu...keren lah, salut!

Dan setelah sekian lama gw ga ketemu dia, akhirnya ketemu juga di Plaza Senayan. Gw seh baru pulang gawe trus nongkrong bentar di Starbucks, eh pas mau pulang ketemu Kido. Dia lagi bareng ma cewe seh, tapi gw ga tau itu sapanya dia... pas gw sapa, gw cuma bilang 'kido ya?', eh ajaibnya dia masih inget gw, pake acara nanya gw dah merit pa blm lagi ^^'' ya jelas belom lah, kerjaan gw pulang kantor kan nontonin cowo2 bishounen itu ngeband, blm lagi yaoi obsession gw... -.-''

Lalu, tgl 13 september nanti, gw mau buka puasa bareng di rumah Kido. Ya ampun, its been so long since the last time I visit his house.... gila, terakhir gw ke rumah dia itu jamannya gw kelas 5 SD kale. Pas waktu itu juga piala di rumah dia dah berentet di meja panjang, sampe turun ke lantai pula tu piala.

Gw dah ngantuk ah, mo bobo. Tar pulang dr Bandung gw mau ngabarin ke nyokap buat buka puasa bareng di rumah Kido, pasti nyokap gw hepi ketemu nyokapnya Kido, secara dulu mereka CS-an kalo nungguin anaknya latihan bulutangkis....

yah jadi inti dari beda gw ma Markis Kido itu; dia menang medali mas olimpiade, gw mas-mas aja ga dapet!!!